Monday! They're baaaaaack!

Is it bad that I've kind of missed this?

(feel free to add what you will to my responses)

RISSA'S BEING MEAN TO ME!

(Why yes, I WAS told to blog about it like the nerd I was.)

Boys are stupid.

I mean, honestly? Would it kill you to make the first move? Would a sniper shoot you dead if you just went for it? I obviously like you! Dear god man!

I feel so lackluster. So unmotivated.

And yet I can't afford to be apathetic! And yet...

I don't know whether I didn't get enough relaxation over Thanksgiving.or if it was the relaxation that made me so apathetic.

Now I'm just annoyed. I do not like to talk about my feelings, thanks, especially not to an ex that I dated for about a week.

And I use the term 'date' loosely.

So I feel like a monumental jackass.

To give you some bad news:

Dollhouse is being canceled.

Now, I'm not that surprised by this. To be honest I only kept up with the show to stay loyal to Joss Whedon. I'm not saying the show didn't have its moments, but compared to his previous shows (Firefly, Buffy, Dr. Horrible), Dollhouse is not up to par.

My problem with the show was the main actress, Eliza Dushku. I never really liked her as an actress. She was always the same person to me whoever she played and it was even more obvious in Dollhouse, when her roll required her to take on completely different personalities every episodes, it was always the same person. At first I thought this was on purpose until I saw more of her costars Dichen Lachman (Sierra) and Enver Gjokaj (Victor). Both actors demonstrated a wide range of personalities and it was very difficult to notice a pattern (and it helped that they kept on switching accents) and they have such chemistry together unlike Dushku's character (Echo) and Detective Paul Ballard (Tamoh Penikett), who seemed to have an odd, almost creepy, obsession with protecting Echo.

I only notice this because I've noticed consistently my favorite episodes have nothing or little to do with Echo. (Most noticeably the last episode which focused specifically on Sierra entitled Belonging.)

Another reason why the show probably did not succeed was that it was deep, and let us face it, today's mainstream television audience's combined IQ is nothing to brag about.

Also, the actual plot took too long. It felt like the show would go out of its way to make a statement, and only inch along in actual plot or character a little bit at a time, not enough to keep the audience wanting more.

A good thing to come out of this though, for all the Dr. Horrible fans out there, Whedon is looking to return to the internet for another project (as well as binge drinking, apparently).

...Just watched Star Trek: 2009 three times in three days. :DDDD

I just watched it with commentary.

Commentary+Gag Reel=Win

That is all.

Okay, the Jo hate? It needs to stop. Like, now.

Just because she might get in the way of your slash pairing (which is my slash pairing, too, by the way) does not mean that she's a bitch. In fact, Jo is awesome. And kickass.


Do not tell me that she's whiny, because she's not. Seriously. No matter what you think of her you cannot deny that she's a strong woman who somehow managed to survive three and seasons of Supernatural without sleeping with the boys, which is a feat matched only by her mother.
She never gives up, dammit.
Also, I've noticed that it's mostly Dean/Cas shippers who hate her. Or Sam/Dean shippers. I am living proof that it is possible to not loathe the women pulled onto a show just because she might get in the way of your slash pairing. Unfortunately, many people seem to disagree.
I am therefore forced to conclude that what we have here is a case of 'eeew, icky girl cooties', and must therefore proceed to headdesk repeatedly to refrain from smacking someone.

Though I must admit to being somewhat amused by the incest shippers' reactions to the aforementioned girlie cooties, since, you know, they ship incest.

I can't believe it's almost over. Part of me is really relieved, but another part of me is apprehensive because I'm going to be working my butt off for work, I'll explain why later. Right now I signed up for classes, and actually got into a Harry Potter religion class! :D I had to abandon a general science course for it, but worth it. :3

So here's basically what has happened/will happen:

I saw Myth

Basically, I was talking to her over Skype Tuesday night and she has had it pretty rough. I commend her for not pouring her heart out onto LJ because that's probably what I would have done, as evidence here. So on a whim, I jumped into my car and drove for three hours by myself to her. (My friendship will never be questioned again.) I was finally able to meet the prodigal roommate and several other of her friends, all of which I enjoyed meeting. I didn't get to spend a lot of time because even though I had Wednesday off due to Veterans Day, I had to be up bright and early the next morning, so I had to leave after lunch. (And Myth's school has kickass food. Like whoa. I'm jealous.) But still, I like to think that I helped a little bit making Myth's life a little better. :) Hopefully there will be a weekend where I can go up and spend it with her soon.

Social Life

I've smoothed things over with my friend DS, after not seeing him for over a month, and now we're cool. Hopefully I'll get to see him and everyone else Sunday. It feels good to have some closure.

Best... Birthday Weekend... Ever

Unfortunately I have a test to study for so I can't go into complete detail. Just know that #19 has moved to the top of the best birthday list. :)
Plus Niagra Falls is absolutely gorgeous.

Some people have church. I have the stables.

I feel much better now.

Oh, Glee. You give me a wonderful episode that I somehow couldn't find any sexist fault with...


It's like giving me a cookie only to smack me in the face two seconds later!


I'll spare you all the rant about how ambitious women are almost always portrayed as evil or ridiculous in media while ambitious men are lauded for their go get 'em attitude.

Have found the perfect shirt. Will now proceed to lust after it.

Please see icon.

So I've decided to take all the negatives that I've been feeling, roll them up, and toss them out the window!

I've taken a little bit of control with my life and hereby quit facebook, youtube, hulu/fox/abc/anywhere I went to watch television until my last final exam. (I might allow myself a visit during Thanksgiving, but I plan on hanging out with friends and what not so I'm going to try not to let it happen.)

Needless to say the withdrawals are stronger than I anticipated, but I've stayed strong. I had to delete all the links in my bookmarks because I found that I would instinctively start gravitating towards with my cursor. I've stayed strong for about a week... but I'm dying to know what's going on in the world.

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Other news: reevaluating my major.

It's no secret what I really want to do is write. I'm not exceptional by any means, only having a few projects that are moving at snail's pace. I've announced that I want to go for my MBA, unfortunately the classes required seem extremely dull.

Riss: Your mother just facebook messaged me to ask why I was still up.
Myth: Ask her why she's still up when she has to go to New Orleans in the morning.
Riss: I told her registration just opened and I was going to bed after I finished.
Myth: I'm telling you, you should just ask -
Riss: No way! Your mother scares me!

Oh, dear.

And later:
Riss: I should have said 'Myth's up too!' I should have tattled.
Myth: She knows I'm up.
Riss: I should have tattled, because she scares me.



...umm. I apologize for my mother?

Nicole has given me an angst cap for JL writing.
Apparently my penchant for killing off characters and taking them to 'dark places that can't be gotten out of' needs to be curtailed.
So she had me make a sticky note (with 'Angst Cap (and not in the 'put on your angst cap' sense)' written on it) and put it on my computer to remind me.
The only problem? It won't stick.
I'm not sure whether I should be amused or horrified.

*edit*
It just fell off again.

I would like for people to realize something.
Just because I've realized that no one wants to hear about my problems or hang around with me when I'm unhappy? This does not mean that my life is made of sunshine and rainbows.
And while yes, my life is pretty good in most respects, this does not mean that I do not have down points, nor does it mean that I am always happy.
So just because I rarely complain about my problems? It doesn't mean that I don't have any.

To the two or three people who I do complain to, please ignore this entry.

I am sorry to subtract from Myth's positive/joyous posts, but it seems as if I have hit another mental low. Though this is not the lowest I've ever been and it is probably not the last time I'll visit this level. Still, I find it very inhibiting to my daily life, mostly in the fact that it creates apathy. School has lost it's excitement, going to fencing doesn't do it for me any more, it's very difficult for me to get excited about anything.

I don't know what I want to do.